In these past few months I have experienced a significant amount of emotional distress, as explored in my recent posts It is Never Quite Behind You and Falling Down the Rabbit Hole. I have had to dig deep within myself to find a way through, to place one foot in front of the other and persevere, all while remaining calm, positive, and brave.
When the going gets tough… If I had to describe myself, or more accurately my actions while I have navigated through these trying times, I would sum it up in one very complex word – SISU. It seems appropriate, as SISU begins where our perceived strength ends. But what is SISU?
What many of you, my readers, may not know about me, is that I am of Finnish heritage. SISU is a Finnish word that, if translated, refers to a variety of actionable traits. SISU stands for determination, courage, resilience, grit, tenacity, and perseverance. At a very young age I was influenced by my Finnish folk who, when met with strife, just ‘got on with it’. Their quiet determination, willpower, and resilience was their every day way of living. They overcame their hardships with both tenacity and integrity, and they found everyday happiness in the everyday moments. It was who they were and how they lived; and, at a very early age, it left its indelible mark on me.
It inspired me. Yet, to be someone who perseveres and just gets on with it can often feel daunting. I will not lie. These trying times have left me both emotionally and physically spent. However, I drew upon my ancestral traits, trusting that I can face the impossible odds, and that I can and will find my way through these trying times. I am not alone. The strength, patience, and kindnesses of loved ones have helped me along. They never let me stumble. They never let me lose my faith. This is collective SISU – we are all strong together.
Though my summer was spent fraught with worry, I was determined to make the best of each moment. And I did have happy moments – bright moments – like twinkling lights thread across a string of anxiety. In the midst of the darkness, I experienced small joys and little wonders. I took time for myself and I spent time with my family. Though I may have felt both afraid and vulnerable throughout the days, I did find everyday happiness in the everyday moments. This is SISU.
And then, the joyous news came within the final moments of summer holidays. Negative for malignancy.
This is SISU. Published by Crystal Joy Hall
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