It has been over six weeks since I have written. Six weeks! Where have I been and what have I been doing?
I truly wish I had exhilarating answers to these questions as good reason for neglecting my blog. I do not. I have been an absentee blogger. A direct result of the daily grind wearing me down. It is the simple and sad truth. I am not taking time for myself, instead, I continue to give much of myself to others.
I am a mom, and so my child’s needs must come first. I am a wife, and to maintain a successful partnership with my husband means taking time for each other. I work, and therefore I must meet the needs of my job. With any time that remains within my day I am often shouldering the responsibilities of daily living (shopping, cooking, cleaning, etc.). There isn’t much time left just for me, and only for me. This is where I stumble. And this is a common challenge that I believe many of us face.
If you recall from my post, Finding Truth, I alluded to the fact that I needed to set goals for myself and take time to rediscover my own path and passions. I reflected on my need for the courage to make a change.
However, the path to self discovery or in my case, rediscovery, is not swift or easy. I have changed significantly over these many years. Life experiences and tragedies, challenges and triumphs have altered who I am and how I perceive not only myself but also the world around me. It has taken patience and quiet listening, journalling and daily gratitudes, to hone in on the essence of what is important to me – those tiny whispers of my heart. In these past six weeks I have been harnessing some of these whispers, formulating new ideas to support my creative endeavours. They are whimsical dreams, manifestations of my soul, but nonetheless, seeds that I have planted and hope to grow.
Though I have paid close attention to my heart to find the answers within; carving out the time to pursue my desires has been difficult. As a parent – specifically a mom – how does one find time to prioritize one’s personal ambitions and goals? How do we steal that moment in time for ourselves without feeling guilty? How do we prioritize self when we bare so much responsibility? Any advice will help, because my heart is there, but my head is not. I feel a little stuck, with my thoughts scattering across a vast plain of pure exhaustion. I am struggling to find clarity. Am I alone? Does anyone else out there struggle too?
I have listened to the whispers of my heart. I know I have the courage to make a change. Now I must learn to make time for what makes me happy …
Tiny Whispers. Published by Crystal Joy Hall
Featured Image by Kristina Paukshtite
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