It is a new year. One that is filled with boundless opportunities and pending hopes, dreams, and ambitions. Yet I have not had time to sit and reflect upon this new year, or the year that has passed us by. I have not had a quiet moment to think about myself. What do I hope for this year? What personal accomplishments do I wish to achieve? What dreams do I wish to fulfill?
I simply do not know.
What I do know, is that I continue to chase days. I continue to feel the burden of every-day responsibilities weighing down on me. I wake each morning hitting the ground running at full-tilt and I don’t get a moment to stop, reset, refocus, and just breathe. Is this my new normal? I have to wonder, because this isn’t the first time I have felt this way. In my post Chasing Days from January 2023, I wrote about the same challenges. I was chasing days. Is this a pattern? Is this now the relentless pattern of my life? If so, how can I alter this pattern? I feel caught in a spinning wheel. I can’t catch up, catch my breath, or even catch a moment of stillness. I feel exhausted in every fabric of my being. How do I get off this spinning wheel?
Life is a journey that has a lot of different paths.
As I write this post, I can honestly say it’s the first time in 4 weeks that I have had a quiet moment to simply sit, write, and reflect. What do I want for my life? Am I following my own truth? Am I walking a path that I have laid down for myself, or a path that has been laid down for me by others? As Ruben Chavez quotes ‘Pay attention to the things you are naturally drawn to. They are often connected to your path, passion, and purpose in life’.
So that is my goal for these next few weeks, if not months. My goal is to pay attention – to listen to my heart, not just my head. I need to rediscover my own path and my own passions. If I wish to stop the spinning wheel then I must stop chasing my days. I must take ownership of myself. And so that is the lesson in all this craziness. I have to have the courage to make the change. No one else can do this for me, but me.
I must dare to find my own truth and have the courage to live it.
I need to find the motivation within myself to make a change. I need to alter my pattern and hold myself accountable for my personal pursuits. If I do not hold myself accountable, then change will not occur. How do I accomplish this? If there is one thing I excel at, it’s a To-Do List. Just as I use one for both work and home, I must to begin a personal To-Do list just for me. I need to mark down what is important to me – from small to big – I need to make that list and tick the boxes each day. In the process of it all, only then, will I reconnect with my passions and hopefully find my own path.
Only then, will I find my truth. Do your dare to find yours?
Finding Truth. Published by Crystal Joy Hall
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